Saturday, November 7, 2009

Pure Exhaustion

Apparently, Homecoming will do that to you. Homecoming and teaching and working and learning and everything else that I choose to clutter my life with. I'm having stress pains today in places that I didn't even know could hurt because of stress. Tell me, is it normal for your jaw to feel like it's about to go numb? Yeah, I didn't think so, either.

A couple more lyrics for you tonight (what can I say, music just speaks to me in ways other things can't):

This song entitled "For Freedom" is by Jimmy Needham. I just chose the most meaningful verses to me for tonight:

It is for freedom He set us free.
But Simon says to fill your void
With toy after toy after girl after boy
After all isn't that what we were meant for?
Please believe me when I say
It is for freedom He set us free.

I am not living a free life. Most people I know are not living free lives. We choose to enslave ourselves with things that don't really matter. I choose to fill my void with so many things that aren't the one thing I should fill it with. I found myself today filling my void with things that I know won't work because I've tried them so many times before. Yet there I went and here I go again.

And now I find myself asking the Lord as I have so many times before, "Will you please free me? Will you show me your freedom again? Will you speak your freedom and love to me in tangible ways?"
And He always answers yes. Eventually. Or immediately. You know, God's timing.

"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." Galatians 5:1