my grand canyon
my empty stream
you're my reservation
my second place consolation"
Again, same song from Lori Chaffer. Now, I need to admit that I don't know for sure what these lyrics mean to the author, but I do want to say what they mean to me.
But let me begin with a story. (You can probably actually find the original incident on my blog in July.) This summer my family went to South Dakota and part of our trip was visiting the Badlands. I have never really been afraid of heights. Yes, sometimes I have not enjoyed them (especially on video games? How weird!), but I've never been scared of them. Well when we went to the Badlands, I had an almost full-blown panic attack as I watched my cousin climb out on the "peaks" of the Badlands. And suddenly I didn't want to be there. I didn't want to fall off those enormously (or semi-enormously) high peaks. I just wanted to be in the car. Safe. And no where near the drop-off. So, needless to say, I did not enjoy my Badlands experience.
When I listened to this song for the first time, this is the line that made me actually listen to the song. The Badlands made me panic like I've never panicked before. I think that sometimes that's what God is to me. The things He asks me to do and the way He works in me make me panic beyond belief.
But the catch is that He always is there while I'm panicking. He sticks around when I think I'm going to fall off the cliff and when I do fall off the cliff, He catches me right before I hit the bottom.