Tuesday, January 4, 2011

My Word

Apparently the trend is for New Year's Resolutions to be out. I get that. Resolutions are hard to keep. If they were easy we would already be doing them and we wouldn't need resolutions.

For a couple years, spurred on by a youth minister, I made New Year's Covenants. Sometimes those were awesome, but more often than not they were awful because of the horrible guilt I felt after breaking a Covenant. (Much more serious than a Resolution, apparently.)

Well this year I'm doing the one-word thing. Some blogger some where started this last year and is continuing it this year and I'm jumping on the bandwagon. Instead of making Resolutions, you pick (or God picks for you) one word that will define your year. One word that you strive to achieve. One word that you come back to throughout the year.

So I prayerfully thought for awhile and decided my word was definitely love. How beautiful, right? I'll love everyone around me. God's love will radiate from me. I already love to love in most cases and it's something I enjoy doing. I'll be loved by God and love others in return.

Fantastic word. And probably great for someone else.

But not me. Not this year.  

That was when my Lord whispered to me, "What about trust?"

Well. Peace out, one-word-year. It's the thought that counts, right? There's no way I could dedicate a year to that word.

Trust that God has a plan for me? A good plan?

Trust that He knows what He's doing even when I can't begin to fathom it?

Trust the people in my life who have been there time and again?

Become a trustworthy person?

No thanks. Too hard. Not worth it.

Fortunately, though, my God can be just as stubborn as I am (often more) and thoroughly convinced me that Trust is indeed to be my word for 2011. He will write it on my heart in ways I didn't (and don't) think it can be written. He will convince me daily that I can and should trust in Him. He will make me into a trustworthy person whose yes is yes and no is no.

It will be hard and long and exciting and I'm sure tedious, but I trust that the Lord will be faithful as He always is.

1 comment:

laura said...

I love your word. I trust that you'll have an amazing year.

I wish we could have seen each other while we were both in Arlington. We NEED to either get together somewhere, sometime or call each other. I would love to catch up with you. I seriously miss you... and I think your blog is my favorite. Love your honesty.